I had a dream last night that kind of freaked me out so I had to do a little more research into it. The results were kind of cool so I'm no longer freaked out.
Your dream symbolizes an aspect of yourself or some aspect of your personal life that is growing and developing. You may not be ready to talk about it or act on it. This may also represent the birth of a new idea, direction, project or goal.
Kind of cool since this is totally where I'm at. I love how that all works together.
Thursday, December 31, 2009
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
Started as one thing, turned into another...
I can't believe the year is coming to an end. I've completed most of my goals for 2009 (can't really find the list so going from memory). Among them was to read 20 books. I know, only 20, but reading is still a relatively new concept in my world. I love to read, but have found it difficult to get into some books. I'm getting much better at it. When I returned from Vancouver I had 7 books left to read to complete my goal. I was a little overwhelmed to say the least considering it took me 10 months to read 13! I'm happy to report that today I just completed my 23rd or is it the 24th book?!! In fact, over the past 4 days I've read 3 1/2 books. I think my goal for next year of 30 books will have to be increased. Other goals included changing my eating habits (which I did until the end of the year), working out more (once again did that until the end of the year) and watching less TV (still working on it, but doing better). Basically, I wanted to focus on changing my life in positive ways.
Among the things I've been doing to change my life include delving into crap from my childhood that still affects me today and reading some great self-help books. I like them because they have some great quotes and give guides to changing negative thinking and actions. So instead of dwelling on the negative things in life I'm focusing on the positive, or, more to the point, realizing that I can only control my reactions to the events and people in my life and not the event or the person.
This brings me to a revelation:
I was feeling a little (ok a lot) sorry for myself at Christmas since I was on my own and working. I started to complain that my brothers did the same as all years and asked me what I wanted for Christmas 2 days before the occasion. Normally this would have incensed me and it did at the time, but I now look at it through a different perspective. That will likely never change and it's ok. They don't need to give me anything to make me happy, but a phone call once in a while would be way more enjoyable. Spending time alone was good and it meant I didn't have all those expectaions that normally accompany the holidays. If I wanted a turkey then it was my choice to make it or not.
Then it occurred to me what I like about Christmas. It's connecting. I did that with my family via telephone, but it's still connecting. Getting gifts is not what I like about Christmas. It's about the people. Oh, the tasety foods and the lights are nice too :)
I love giving. And I like giving something that I think someone would either really need or just simply enjoy. I want to bring a smile to someone else's face, which, in turn, will bring a smile to mine. Not that I'm saying I don't like receiving. Let's face it, we all do. What I like is recieving something totally unexpected or straight from the heart. Like a card from someone unexpected, a brief hello on FB or an email, something small works for me. A clear example is the gift I received from Tanya and Andre - a totally cool book which I would never have purchased or heard of or expected, but which made me laugh and grossed me out a bit in parts, but was something that they knew I'd enjoy.
So this coming year I am focusing on the good and working on reacting differently. I have a new list of goals for 2010, which I will not lose this time. And for probably the first time in my life I'm really happy to just be. I have no expectations of others so I'm not anticipating disappointments. Of course I'm sure I may fall, or more likely go flailing off, this new path, but it's already making me feel like a different person. Happy 2010!!
Among the things I've been doing to change my life include delving into crap from my childhood that still affects me today and reading some great self-help books. I like them because they have some great quotes and give guides to changing negative thinking and actions. So instead of dwelling on the negative things in life I'm focusing on the positive, or, more to the point, realizing that I can only control my reactions to the events and people in my life and not the event or the person.
This brings me to a revelation:
I was feeling a little (ok a lot) sorry for myself at Christmas since I was on my own and working. I started to complain that my brothers did the same as all years and asked me what I wanted for Christmas 2 days before the occasion. Normally this would have incensed me and it did at the time, but I now look at it through a different perspective. That will likely never change and it's ok. They don't need to give me anything to make me happy, but a phone call once in a while would be way more enjoyable. Spending time alone was good and it meant I didn't have all those expectaions that normally accompany the holidays. If I wanted a turkey then it was my choice to make it or not.
Then it occurred to me what I like about Christmas. It's connecting. I did that with my family via telephone, but it's still connecting. Getting gifts is not what I like about Christmas. It's about the people. Oh, the tasety foods and the lights are nice too :)
I love giving. And I like giving something that I think someone would either really need or just simply enjoy. I want to bring a smile to someone else's face, which, in turn, will bring a smile to mine. Not that I'm saying I don't like receiving. Let's face it, we all do. What I like is recieving something totally unexpected or straight from the heart. Like a card from someone unexpected, a brief hello on FB or an email, something small works for me. A clear example is the gift I received from Tanya and Andre - a totally cool book which I would never have purchased or heard of or expected, but which made me laugh and grossed me out a bit in parts, but was something that they knew I'd enjoy.
So this coming year I am focusing on the good and working on reacting differently. I have a new list of goals for 2010, which I will not lose this time. And for probably the first time in my life I'm really happy to just be. I have no expectations of others so I'm not anticipating disappointments. Of course I'm sure I may fall, or more likely go flailing off, this new path, but it's already making me feel like a different person. Happy 2010!!
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